...18! 18! 18! 18! ...

today marks the end of the first month in 2005 and it falls on my 18th birthday too. yeah!!! i am soooooo very very very extremely extremely super super super super (i think you guys get my point) happy today. i know i have been blogging about this special day to come for the past few entries but i could not control my emtions. i am anticipating for this day to come since 1st January. it's natural to be excited about one's birthday right? so i am not in the wrong!!! hahahahahahaz...

i was busy mugging my guts out last night and slept around 0030 to study for the 2 stupid econs and chem lecture tests today. i was very depressed that i had to suffer such a torture on my birthday. =( nevertheless, the thought of celebrating my birthday with all my friends, near or far, close or distance, in school perished the torture off my mind. received alot of birthday wishes from all my friends at midnight, early next morning, before school, during school and after school. i am so overwhelmed by best wishes but i still want more. hahaz... as what jiefang said, i am a greedy pig.

the day started off well because my angel finally wrote to me. hahaz... so happy... he/she gave me mentos too. and it was one of my favourite flavours. hahaz... my angel rocks.

o4s14 gave me this doggy massager. i find it very itchy to operate it on my body. my mum loves it. i can foresee her using it everytime she watches the TV. jr gave me this handphone keychain thingy.hahaz... 04S14 sang me a birthday song during contact. so sweet... it's great to know that people around you remembers your birthday. i love goi's red birthday card. not because it is red in colour, but because it's very nicely done and coloured with coloured pencils. she is really great at artwork. =D everyone whom i showed the card to praised her artwork, including my mum. hahaz... thanks goi!! 5some gave me this heart shaped necklace. it's very nice. though i have lots of them at home, i don't mind having one more. hahaz... i promised zhai to wear it on 6th feb on 5some gathering at fang's house because our dearest shan is oming back on the 5th feb to celebrate cny. yeah!!! i miss her sooooo much.

the party actually started after school. minghui and jiefang rushed to plaza singapura to buy mine and neo's birthday at angie's the choice. hahaz... the orea cake rocks!! thanks for all the sweat and blood you guys shed in organising this mini birthday party cum gathering for me. though not all managed to turn out, i really appreciated your efforts. it really brings back all the fond memories i had with you guys. thanks for the brilliant 18th birthday present. and STOP arguing whose idea it is okay? hahaz... they gave me presents to represent my chinese name, zhu suyun. a red pig, a cactus, and a picture of a cloud. hahaz... they never fail to brighten up my day. =D we walked to HC to meet up with pee and liting. we ate the cake there and chit chat and discussed our V-day plan. hahaz...

woon gave me this star-shaped balloon. it's sliver in colour and i really had alot of problems getting on the bus. luckily jiefang was with me. i really miss her alot.... i had not went home with her together for a very long time already. it's never loney to have her beside me on my way to and fro school in the past. haizz... how things have changed now. =) and take care of your health okay? cny is coming soon so dont fall ill now. pee sewed this winnie the pooh pouch for me. she wrote in her card to ask me to use it or else i will break her heart but i do not have the heart to use it. i do not want it to get dirty... how??? pee... dont scold me if i don't use it. i am v v v v touched!!! did you poke your fingers many many many times? hahaz... anyway, pee, take care okay? drink more water and rest early tonight!

now, i am eating my birthday cake again. hahaz... it is my 3rd birthday cake i received so far. hahaz... i am going to grow fat and fatter and fattest soon especially when the cny goodies that my mum baked are irresistible. just now my dad was telling me that i would not receieve anyore birthday cakes from him when i reach 21. how sad.... it happened for both my sis and brother. i asked him why and he answered because 21 is the so-called legal age of adulthood. so i should be buying my own birthday cake and be more independent then. i don't want!!! i want to receive birthday cakes from my parents every single year.

oh no!!!! i missed the first half of desperate housewives... argh!!! i am NOT going to do any work today. hahaz... going to write letters to my angel and mortal later. yeah!! once again, i want to thank everyone who has made my day today. it really means alot to me. thanks guys and i will love you all forever!!! yeah!! but i still love myself the most. KAREN ROCKS!!!

"make a wish and let it happen"

...road run...

i am so proud of myself!!! there's NJ road run yesterday and it covered a distance of 3.7km for the girls' route and i did not stop and walk at all. yeah!!! thanks goi for all the encouragement along the way. this year's road run was fun especially the interhouse cheering competition. our class went to the side of the track to cheer on the others who were running. suddenly we saw a familiar figure enter the school gate and it was our hot favourite teacher, mr yong!!! hahaz.. he was very scary towards the end of the run. he shouted something with his mouth wide opened. they said it was to make him run faster. i don't know how true that is but i will just accept it. i admired him even more after the road run. one of his canoeists was injured before the run but he still ran the race. for that, i salute his courage to challege himself. ater mr yong had crossed the finishing line, he went back to suppor the canoeist guy. i could see that he was in great pain because he was gripping mr yong's hand as if he was going to die of pain any moment. i could see the close bond that mr yong had built with his fellow canoeists which really touched me. =) was damn high after running. i was telling my classmates lame joke about the child and fan, jumping around and shouting away. haha... so fun. it was my first time i felt the ignis spirit in nj.

burn, burn, burn, burn....

superman man man spiderman

spiderman man man batman

who are who are who are we

we are we are we are we

who are we

we are we

we are, we are, we are

i love ignis pom pom pom pom pom (x2)

deStefano here we go

5, 6, 7, 8

we will we will

thrash you flat like gingerbread and never let you stand

bang bang bang

pyromaniacs

we are the best in the whole world

if you try to mess with us

you have to pay the price

so go and eat our dust

that's the entire version of the ignis cheer. hahaz.. we rock!

after road run, i was damn hungry. on our way to town, we took a bus. i pitied those who were on the same bus as us, including all NJCians because we all stank. our body gave out this foul smell after the run especially when we did not bring or change into another set of clean clothes. yucks... went to the NYDC outside heeren to have lunch. the place rocks especially the red and comfortable sofa. as usual, their food portion is huge. we all had a hard time trying our very best to finish up our food. i was intenting to share the mudpie with beth but we gave up the idea half way through our meals.

after that, we decided to take neoprints. i and elieen, my fellow manager, were playing around with this neoprint machine. putting our faces v close to the camera and making funny faces... hahaz.. so dumb. i felt like a 5 yr-old kid messing up the house when my parents are not at home.hahaz... we were screaming and shouting away when we were taking the neoprints. it was hard for us to contain our excitement. my face was so so so so v v v v BIG because i was standing in the first row with wenting. arghhhh!!!! so big.

there's guide activity today. it was their last campfire (cf) rehearsal before the actual one which falls on the 5th feb. i was not present at the previosu rehearsal but compared with what i heard of the previosu rehearsal, i think there was improvement made but it's not good enough. i am not trying to find fault with them but there was really something lacking in the rehearsal. their attitudes towards the rehearsal were not excellent. they did not treat it seriously, they did not feel the sense of urgency, they did not feel the importance of this last and final rehearsal before the actual one which is only a week away. i did not want their cf to be screwed up. to me, cf has always played a major role in my guiding years. i always enjoyed myself during cf and i loved them. i miss cf after i graduated and i still do miss cf. i want this cf to leave good memories for them and everyone who is coming on 5th feb. i wanted to wake them up but the anger could not boil up within me. like what chihui said, we were looking at the cf as a third party so naturally we wun feel that much for this cf as 2 years ago. i did not scold them. i did not punish them.

anyway, the guides juniors were the first batch of friends who sang a birthday song for me. so touched. i was shocked that they knew my birthday. later i found out it was one of my ex-patrol members who initiated that. *sob so sweet right? that's what i called sisterhood. =D

25 more hours to go. hahaz...

"a leader sees the what ifs"

...tomorrow...

i will be able to get together with my YEP mates tomorrow again. yeah!!! so happy. though i see them especially my dearest bunk mates, in school daily, the feeling is different. there is not enough time for us to sit down and chit chat. it is always a simple smile or hi and bye because we are always rushing to our classes. it's okay. anyway, they 4 leaders are going to do a presentation at SIF tomorrow. all the best!! i heard from reika that many are going to support them tomorrow. hahaz... so exciting. and i will be able to wear the black YEP shirt again. hahaz...

today sucks. dark clouds started to gather in TA16 at the start of the first lesson of the day. the next few lessons were boring because it was econs. argh!!!! i dont understand why i took econs. damn it. chem tutorial proved my point that i speak very very loudly again. damn it. once again, we had cultural mapping. it is a complete waste of time. meaningless school activity.

it's coming, it's coming... i am anticipating it. i cannot wait for weekends, and finally MONDAY. hahaz...

anyway, i just made a pair of new spectacles. it's reddish brown in colour. hahaz.. red again. but it's okay. i love red. yeah!! see me with my new spectacles next week. =D

"changes make you grow"

...shagged...

one should live a happy life. as the word "happy" can be broken down into "HA-PPY", we should all laugh whenever possible. laughing lightens my mood, brightens up my day, does wonders to my life. an old saying says "laughing is better than frowning. in fact, frowning uses more muscles than laughing" thus, why bother to work your face muscles so hard everyday by frowning. smile everybody.. though we had the 2.4km pre-test today for PE, i enjoyed myself today. =D all thanks to "ma di you" and goi's dry agent. to others, these are not amusing at all but to me, they make a difference in my day.

"be strong and smile when things go wrong"

...out of control...

something is wrong with me.
goi was right.
i was super crazy and excited during the periods before break.
laughing and joking with them.
but things took a change during sci consultation.
is it just me or what?
i am losing my temper so easily that scares me and makes me reflect.
i was childish and immature.
or maybe i should say i am so.
jess and elieen were right.
i should be nicer to people and stop being such a sarcastic fool.
but is that the real me?

"losing control over my actions"

..chomp chomp adventures...

i went to the EAST side of Singapore today again!!!! it is to celebrate our dearest shih and goi 18th birthday. woah.... 18 years old sounds so adult because they are legal to do many things which i cannot do them openly yet. oops...

we bought a billabong wallet and a mug for shih. the funniest thing about her present is the sentence at the bottom of the mug which is "A girl was born and the girl is me". hahaz... nvm.. it is a inside joke. we made a tshirt for goi with all our birthday wishes printed on it. she changed into the tshirt. so cool... and i love shih's message. it's in a heart shape. very sweet but very hard to read.

the highlight of the day is the FOOD. though chomp chomp is located near amk, the food rocks. i still it is comparable to the food at holland village but definitely better than changi village. hahaz.. the stingray with sambal chilli rocks... the octopus, the fried oyster egg, hokkien mee (though i found many beanspouts in them and i hate them!!! yucks!!!), the super big gulp sugarcane juice and many many more. i only remembered the food kept coming and i am still feeling very full now.

the best part was the guys and girls sat separately and we had a mini battle between the sexes. the guys ill-treated us lor... when we sang birthday song to shih and goi and i think we were making a hell lot of noise, the guys walked away and pretended they did not know us and went to order the food. actually it was a blessing in disguise because we girls were too lazy to move our bums to go and order the food. hahaz... so thanks guys! BUT, they gave us cold hokkien mee, stole our satay and snatched our chocolate on the birthday cake. argh!!! all meanies... when this cute little girl came to serve us our satay, we girls were practically shouting at her to come over to our table and she did. yeah!! the guys started making noises and the little girl told them to shut up. hahaz... the cute and fair little girl rocks!!

after having our full, we went to the nearby mac to have our dessert. or rather i should say the guys had theeir 25cents, budget ice cream cone. after that, we played this game called "mafia ". it is a very very cool and intelligent game. something like murderer but i think it is of a higher level. as usual, our dearest shih made our day again with her intelligence that is of the size of a pea. oops... but she had definietly brought us much fun and laughter. and that stupid wj kept having something against me, kept accusing me that i was the mafia. but it's okay because it is just a game. =D

on our separate ways home, i was touched by them because i lived the furthest among them so i would take the longest time to reach home. hahaz... logical right? that's not the point. the mian point is we left the mac around 10pm and i needed around 1 hour plus plus to reach home. omg... but it's okay. they were very nice to me, like goi advising me to take MRT instead of 156 because it is safer to take MRT than bus so late at night, and wj, hq,kc and shih helped me to estimated my travelling time if i took a bus or MRT home and came to a conclusion that it would be faster if i took MRT. so i took their advice and i reached home just before midnight. hahaz... thanks everybody!!! =D

it's late at night but i still facing this computer. sleep tight everyone. =)

"the most simple blessing is to have friends"

...party...

yeah!!!! finally it's a holiday. it's a long weekend for me except that i have PA orientation and 04S16 class dinner on sat. neverthless, i can take a break from the hectic school days after 3 torturous weeks in school.

i have been short on my temper recently at home. i don't why. i gets irritated very easily especially by my parents. it's not that they are watching over me too closely and tightly that i do not have any personal space. in fact, they do not enforce much restrictions on me. take last night for example, i was supposed to tape amazing race for my sis as she went on her honeymoon trip yesterday. coincidentally, my mum was not at home at 10pm yet to catch her taiwan drama on channel u. as a good husband, my dad decided to tape the show for her. he just changed the TV channel without telling me, thinking that i was that thoughtful to tape the show for my mum. i explained to him that i needed to tape amazing race on 5. in the end, i gave up the fight over the VCR with my dad and started scrolling down the addres book in handphone.

time waits for no man. every second the seond hand moves, my heart raced faster. i was afraid i would not be able to find someone in time to tape the show for me. i totally freaked out. it sounds like a small matter but i hate not be able to complete a task especially a simple one like recording a show for your family members. i hate it when things are undone.

finally, my 2 survivors, zhai and samantha saved me at the very last minute. phew..

anyway, talking about television programme, american idol season 4 is starting tonight. AHHHHHHH!!!!! i am so excited that i cannot wait to spot the next clay. hahaz... i am a big fan of caly aiken. or maybe there will be another william hung this season? everyone out there, remember to catch the show on 5 tonight at 10pm.

back to the good old school days... went to have lunch with 04s14 at coro today. i think i had irritated goi with my wonderful pronounciation of "ROAD RUN ROUTE". hahaz... it's not my first time not pronouncing words properly. some mispronounced words by me are "bone", "bu le ge zhuang chang"(the song by jolin tsai), and today, "road run route".

"a simple hi can make one's day"

...exciting month...

yeah!!!! january is always an exciting month for me because my birthday is coming soon. hahaz... i am so excited. i cannot wait for the day to come. when i was very very very young, i thought very few people are born in the month of january. but i was wrong. goi's birthday is today!!!! hahaz... happy 18th birrthday to you!!! and shih's brithday is coming soon. kaifen's one too. 2 of my primary school mates had their 18th birthday already. i have found 2 people who have the same birthday as me. yeah!!!! neo, my twin and the other is my primary school mate.

"optimistic. creative. innovative. "

...school...

i know i am contridicting myself but i cannot help it but to dread school more than before. i remembered myself annoucing to the whole world that i could not wait for school to start during the holidays last year. i read some of my friends's blog and they feel uncertain about the future. i am feeling the same way too. i know it's going to be a tough year for me but it will be gone real soon before i even notice it. nevertheless, i fear still tomorrow.


everyday, i dragged myself out of my bed to school. i cannot help but to yawn and feel restless during lesson time. i am losing my motivation, my concentration, my focus... everything. i am looking forward to dismissal time everyday. weekends alway bring shine to my eyes which you cannot spot on monday mornings. what's wrong with me??


the most recent contact period inspired me quite abit. it's not on choice making but on friends. in life, i cannot expect my best pals to be with me forever. i need to learn how to adjust to changes and adapt to them pretty well. i cannot always resist changes though i do not really love changes. i hate changes that screw up my life. i hate myself for not accepting it. i hate myself to be restricted by limitations and boundaries. i guess i have to learn this important life lesson through a hard way. to regret my choice? maybe it's too early to judge.

"to jump in and out of your circle"

...phantom of the opera...

i went to catch the movie "phantom of the opera" with minghui after school today. i was persuaded by jarryl to watch the movie because he told us that "anybody wants to watch phontom of the opera? i don't mind watching it thrice,". in the end, i don't think that the movie is as awesome as he described.


it is orginated from a play. it's about the phantom fell in love with his student, christine but his student loved vicomte de chagny. something like a love triangle. in the end, the phantom kidnapped christine to be his bride but who was christine with in the end? hahaz.. i am not going to tell you. i love the music and the setting. very magnificant. i wasw impressed by the cast because they sang all their lines throughout the show. there were less than 10 lines spoken. it touched my heart when the Christine and Vicomte de Chagny pledged their love for one another. the words that they used were very beautiful. i will definitely fall in love with a guy if he says the same words to me. hahaz.. i am daydreaming again ya? however, it was draggy for me at the beginning of the movie. not much of actions but more singing and singing. i graded the movie as average.


PE is TERRIBLE plus HORRIBLE recently. i have been running and running and RUNNING non-stop for all my PE lessons so far. they said it is to train us up for our road run and napfa. argh!!!!! i hate running!!!! and there is PE tmr. omg... and i am going to run 9 rounds around the track, which is 3.6km tmr. woah... how great. hahaz... fitty karen. oops...

"Anywhere you go, let me go too"

...it's HER day...

she looked gorgeous yesterday. she was fantastic. she was the star for the day. she was in the limelight. eveyone was captivated by her. we could not take our eyes off her. that's my sis. i finally understood why people always say the woman will look her best on her wedding day.


i woke up early in the morning yesterday to prepare for her wedding. though it was hectic, i had fun. i was one of my sis's jie meis. a norm practice was to tease the groom and get our ang baos before we allowed him to receive my sis. the first ang bao consisted only $2. what a meany brother-in-law i have. hahaz... after some negotiation, the stakes were rised. hahaz... when we allowed him in, he had to guess which lipstick mark belonged to my sis. in fact none of it on the tissue paper was my sister's. so he had to finish a bottle of yu gan you and HL milk with his brothers. then he had to write down 10 committments that he will do on a wedding card. the last obstacle was he had to sing my sis's favourite song. i do not know the title of the song because he sang the song in cantonese. followed up, we had the tea ceremony.


around 12noon, guests were streaming in for the lunch buffet. i saw alot of my sis's friends from her secondary school, poly, university and her colleagues. they changed alot and many were married. i could not recognise some of them. it then came upon me that time really flies.


before the start of the buffet, my sis had a solemnization. i was moved to tears when my sis and brother-in-law exchanged their vows and promised to love, take care of one another forever. so sweet....


the photographer went to many concerts to take photographs for the artists. he went to the jay chou concert last year which i missed it because i was in thailand. he showed me some of the photographs and they were all very close up and nice. hahaz... jay rocks. he gave me one of the photographs. hahaz.. so exciting... he promised to develop a bigger version of the one i like for me and will pass it to my sis when she collects her wedding photos. i cannot wait to see the photos. hahaz...


i am starting to miss her. =(

" i could spend my life in this sweet surrender"

...can't wait...

my dearest sister is getting married tomorrow. hahaz... i am so happy for her and excited. i cannot wait for tomorrow to come. it's my first time attending a chinese traditional wedding ceremoney, experiencing the tea ceremony myself. hahaz... i cannot wait.


i had a hard time preparing for her big day. i went to shop around for a dress. it has been ages since i wear a dress. hahaz... and i am going to wear high heeled shoes. omg... i nv like the idea of wearing high heeled shoes cos it is bad for my ankle. besides i always have this feeling that i am going to fall any moment. they are a pair of unstable shoes. i hope that i will not fall tomorrow.


i better sleep early tonight cos i need to be ready by 9am. that's very early for me, considering i usually wake up around 11am during the holidays.


school has finally started. it has been a week and i think it's still OKAY for me except that tests and homework are piling up again. some teachers remain, while some left us. i guess most of us except dingod miss mr yong. he is a GREAT phys teacher. initially my impression of him was he was the second LLM from RV. he gave us alot of pressure to do our best and encouraged us to put in effort in everything that we do. i felt stressed to be his student. our relationship got better and we become friends with him. i found out that he is lame, funny, inspiring, motivating and encouraging teacher. we love him!!! we will definitely keep in touch with him and will always remember "heart and soul".


the other teacher who left us was ms heng. i was soooo overjoyed that she took over mrs koh. though she had just graduated from nie last year, at least i could understand her lesson better than the experienced mrs koh. she is easy outgoing and we always had alot of fun during her lessons, either by teasing her or talking crap to her. i will definitely miss all the fun and laughter that we had last year during her lessons cos it is lacking in our present economics lessons. how sad....


have fun during the rest of the school days everyone!!!

"only those who know how to love is happy"

...am i ready...

school is starting tmr. let's scream everybody. haha... although some are dreading for the day to come, i am looking forward and rather excited about it. it's not that i love school v v much but because i want to clear my A levels ASAP. i cannot wait for 2005 to come and to end.

since school is starting, my schoolwork will start piling up and i will not have that much time to blog and do my own stuff anymore. how sad... it will be a mad rush when school starts. but it's okay. i will pull through. oh man.. i feel so motivated now. haha... i am being a crazy girl here.

have fun tomrrow in school! =D

"look at things with an open-mind"

...a brand new year...

yeah!!!!! HAPPY 2005 to everyone out there!!!! have a GREAT year ahead okay?


2004 is gone just like that. it seems like yesterday when i just stepped into NJC. hmm... 2004 has been a roller coaster year for me.


first was the change in school environment, from RV to NJ. initially i could not adapt to the sudden change. but luckily, i was posted to a great class called 04S16. it's strange how close and strong bonds we had built within 3 months and some of us are still keeping in contact which is good. =D the first 3 months is one of my best memories in this year. the fun that we had from our DAILY outings after school, marine bay, chalets, dingod's house (our favourite hangout), and most importantly, the tears that we shed from the overseas outing, having tea with the principal and the class spliting up. tahnks guys for accompanying me through this journey.


though i have met more new friends in JC, both from 04S16 and 04S14, i am still closely in contact with my sec4 class. yeah!! love you guys... we still have gatherings like the one close to christmas and we still go out shopping together. yeah... i love shopping. hahaz... it's so nice to have friends around you. =D


at the end of the year was the overseas CIP trip to surin, thailand. i have learnt alot and gained alot of insights through this trip. i have become a richer person. =D initially i was quite worried about the trip cos it was my first time travelling overseas along, and also my first time participating in an overseas CIP project. i was anticipating it. was having mixed feelings then. BUT, i did not regret my decision and was glad that i went. thanks for all the beautiful memories that YEP, surin, thailand 2004 team has brought to me during those 16 days.


besides all these personal stuff, many major events happened around the world this year too. like the bird flu which affected singapore. and the most recent one is the tsunamis. many said it marked the end of the world but i really hope that everything will be back to normal soon and fast. i hope everyone will be safe and sound and most importantly, peace. hahaz... sounds like lines that miss universe will say but what the crap. then there is the appointment of the new singapore PM, elections in taiwan, USA and indonesia. not forgetting our local TV media. SPH mediaworks will merge with mediacorp. it's sad to see the merger cos i love to watch the variety shows shown on channel U.


a brand new year, a brand new start. let's all look forward the new year with an open mind. =D meanwhile, enjoy the last few days of the holidays before we get back to school. =D

"be a person full of love"